Monday, 7 May 2012

Good Days / Bad Days.

(I have attached this post for the Handmade Monday crew to see too, so you guys don't think I've vanished off the face of the Earth! :) - I will be back!)

So ... me and life are struggling to get on at the moment.

Don't panic! I'm not about to jump off a bridge or do anything silly like that. It is a mind-over-matter issue that I cannot seem to shake off right now. I have good days where I can get up, get loads done and feel fine and then there are the days I want to stay in bed, where I have such little energy that I cannot do anything at all. It isn't a new thing, it's been a problem for the last few years, it is just more prominent at the moment. Adding to that, I am classed as 'severely underweight' and struggling with being lactose intolerant - I just generally feel down most of the time. 

It is even a struggle writing about it now, but the first step is to admit there is a problem, right?

I also have a serious issue with the amount of liquid I drink a day. I hardly drink anything, which is no doubt one of the reasons why I lack energy. I just cannot seem to get in to the habit of drinking more.

On top of my health struggles, I am now only working between 4 and 12 hours a week and as the kind man at the jobcentre told me - 'It's about being in the right place at the right time...' This means I am on my own for the most part of the week; more time to over think things, more time to worry.
I have started volunteering one day a week at our local RSPB reserve and I try to visit for an afternoon every other week too, so it does help that I can met new people and that I don't feel like I'm going completely crazy. 

Soooo, for the next eight weeks I am going to lay low and focus on getting well again. I will pop up here and there on twitter every now and again no doubt, but generally won't be tweeting, blogging or be internet busy until July-ish. 

Thanks in advance for your support and I will see you all back here in a couple of months time! :) XX


  1. Nicola, this time last year I was in a similar position to you having been made redundant. I realise now that at times during the year I really was depressed, fortunately not to the point of having to see my GP but pretty close. Everyone has different ways of coping with it, for me it was finding comfort in a routine and sticking to it rigidly. I do hope that you get through this really soon, just remember your friends in the virtual world are here rooting for you.

  2. Ros has given some sound advice, just take care

  3. Oh, I feel for you Nicola. Like Ros said, routine can help a lot. Concentrate on getting fluid inside you - really important!! Also, I've been lactose intolerant for a long time & found out that lactose intolerance is often linked to a gluten allergy (I know that sounds like bad news, but it's not). I knew for a long time eating too much bread made me feel depressed - now I have a better idea why. I felt much better within days of eating gluten free (I used to get almost daily migraine)maybe it could be worth trying for a week? Meanwhile, work on what makes you feel better - most of us respond well to a diet high in fruit and veg, walking in green spaces, mixing with other people and of course getting enough sleep and relaxing. I hope you're feeling much better very soon. Best wishes xxx

  4. Nicola, just want to send my good wishes to you. We are on a rollercoaster here too with good days and bad as my younger daughter struggles with her eating problems. As I say to her, you have to keep going and remember that there are people out there who do love and care, just think up some nice things to do when things are bad and the better bits will start joining together again.
    Being too much on your own isn't great - your volunteering is such a good idea. You can do it!
    Catherine x

  5. So sorry to hear you aren't feeling yourself at the moment. I struggle with drinking and often go a few days at a time without having anything to drink. It isn't helped by the fact that I hate water!! I am also gluten intolerant which also makes me feel very lethargic and I struggle to motivate myself to do things. I am sending you warm thoughts and really hope you feel yourself again soon. X