Monday, 7 May 2012

Good Days / Bad Days.

(I have attached this post for the Handmade Monday crew to see too, so you guys don't think I've vanished off the face of the Earth! :) - I will be back!)

So ... me and life are struggling to get on at the moment.

Don't panic! I'm not about to jump off a bridge or do anything silly like that. It is a mind-over-matter issue that I cannot seem to shake off right now. I have good days where I can get up, get loads done and feel fine and then there are the days I want to stay in bed, where I have such little energy that I cannot do anything at all. It isn't a new thing, it's been a problem for the last few years, it is just more prominent at the moment. Adding to that, I am classed as 'severely underweight' and struggling with being lactose intolerant - I just generally feel down most of the time. 

It is even a struggle writing about it now, but the first step is to admit there is a problem, right?

I also have a serious issue with the amount of liquid I drink a day. I hardly drink anything, which is no doubt one of the reasons why I lack energy. I just cannot seem to get in to the habit of drinking more.

On top of my health struggles, I am now only working between 4 and 12 hours a week and as the kind man at the jobcentre told me - 'It's about being in the right place at the right time...' This means I am on my own for the most part of the week; more time to over think things, more time to worry.
I have started volunteering one day a week at our local RSPB reserve and I try to visit for an afternoon every other week too, so it does help that I can met new people and that I don't feel like I'm going completely crazy. 

Soooo, for the next eight weeks I am going to lay low and focus on getting well again. I will pop up here and there on twitter every now and again no doubt, but generally won't be tweeting, blogging or be internet busy until July-ish. 

Thanks in advance for your support and I will see you all back here in a couple of months time! :) XX